I want to escape
from this heaviness I feel
I want to revert back
To the vices that gave me cheap thrills
I want to have a dialogue with myself
I want to numb the pain I feel inside
I cry out to Him “Oh Jesus Why”
Not understanding I chose this when I said Yes
No one said choosing Him would be easy
But I don’t recall hearing about the hardship
Don’t get me wrong I love my Father
I just don’t feel built for this amount of pain
Oh God comfort me during this time of isolation
I won’t tap out I won’t back down I’ll keep going
Even though I want to scream my lungs out
Jesus be my healer, Jesus be my strength
Jesus sit me down when I get up to run the race
I know this time is a blessing,
A time of rest and reassurance
But God show me more, please do
Show me that the only thing I need
In this world
Is you
Emmanuelar Malone
End Escapism, Seek His Kingdom 🖤✝️ 